That brother said: I persisted in one thought uninterruptedly, constraining the will of God to give me the knowledge and vision of the New World as a pledge in the same way as the Fathers had seen. He returned answer to me that it was not for my station to attain this, but I acted disobediently and asked insistently. Whereupon, because he is unable to withold his mercy from those who ask, he caused the glorious lights of his knowledge to shine in my soul, so that my mind could not stand before its intense power and the delight it brought. From its intoxication I became as one in a frenzy and I was no longer able to speak concerning God before anyone, nor to see the service, nor to hear the lesson, nor even to give heed to God in anyone's presence. Whenever I was speaking about God, or seeing the service, or hearing the lesson, or giving heed to God, the glorious light of Christ's majesty shone upon me and my mind was captivated, so that I fell to the ground and became a shameful sight to the onlookers. And so I was in continual fear of doing any of these things in anyone's presence. As the power of the gift was too strong for my weak mind to bear, I acknowledged my weakness and was sorry. I returned to ask Christ to take it and moderate it in proportion to the weakness of my mind, so that it might be able to endure its gift. (D5)